by Coloconnect (PM , CC ) on Sunday February 19, 2006 @ 7:48 PM
Addictions are the result of our attempt to come to terms with the uneasiness of life. That feeling one gets we interpret as something is not right. We then fill the void with external objects which we feel will make it right. Booze, drugs, food, gossip, …they are all addictions. But they never does.
Being human carries with it the underlying anxiety that something is wrong...life could be better. Through meditation one realizes that life is life and nothing is wrong. All we need is more compassion. Compassion for the self first and then for all sentient beings.
Stop trying to "make it better"...it is. A human birth is the most privileged position .
by Coloconnect (PM , CC ) on Tuesday February 28, 2006 @ 1:36 AM
Well Getting Sober I hope sometimes I meet you and I find out that you are doing OK...Just too busy to blog...sober and happy.....adventure not tragedy...I will be praying for you..Anyway in real time 3 weeks isn't long...but in our time...it seems like a year...Colo
I've been praying all day that god helps save me from my addiction. Today I'm going to my first AA meeting. I have chosen soberity for the first time in my life. I don't know what's next for me. I'm scared, alcohol has been my escape for a long time. I'm also scared of the pain I have caused so many will hit my like a ton of bricks. I don't want to face it. I hope that those I love can forgive me for years of drunken fits of rage. I've been a bad person all though I have so much good to offer. God forgive me and deliever my from this illness. Please God hear my prayer.
by KW (PM , CC ) on Saturday April 1, 2006 @ 4:27 PM
Hello I am glad i found your site. I nee to talk to others in recovery. I had 18 months and dropped the gota year and dropped then 7 months and dropped. This time it about killed me. I don't know what to do. Relapse is death next time. I thought it was this time. If you get time read my last blog or 2 and i will get back on here tomarrow.
I am in need of help. This is a life and death thing and i am only 2 days clean and i don't know what to do. I can't keep time. I dont want to loose it ever.
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Being human carries with it the underlying anxiety that something is wrong...life could be better. Through meditation one realizes that life is life and nothing is wrong. All we need is more compassion. Compassion for the self first and then for all sentient beings.
Stop trying to "make it better"...it is. A human birth is the most privileged position .
I am glad i found your site. I nee to talk to others in recovery. I had 18 months and dropped the gota year and dropped then 7 months and dropped. This time it about killed me. I don't know what to do. Relapse is death next time. I thought it was this time. If you get time read my last blog or 2 and i will get back on here tomarrow.
I am in need of help. This is a life and death thing and i am only 2 days clean and i don't know what to do. I can't keep time. I dont want to loose it ever.